youtube.

I replay songs over and over again.

when really,
all that i'm after is a life full of laughter
even though
when a heart breaks, no it don't break even
but
you won't have to look up at the sky. no no no no
so please don't
bottle it up
and tell me
what do you want from me.

The Start of the End

Today, the rest of the school got their registration cards for next year. It's pretty surreal. We're really doing it. Graduating. I'm glad. Everyone's tired. fuck.

I'm still secretly hoping that I will get a registration card.

Too Soon.

It's too soon. To be thinking of leaving. Of graduating. Of not debating. Of breaking bonds. Of partying. Of redecorating. Of missing people. Of rooming. Of Jumping.

of falling.

I'm afraid that if I take time to think about it all. to really think about it all. I will only psyche myself out.

So for now, it's way too soon.

"How does this goodbye thing work?"
It doesn't.

the forgotten

What if one day you were told that everything you believed to be true wasn't real, but just your imagination?

I saw the forgotten today. The government or some entity tried to break up the bond of a mother and child. "But some things can't be forgotten"

I hadn't been to store in so long. On the inside of big safe, my dad measured Ibrahim and I as we grew taller. [I haven't grown since 2006 btw-_-] But there was another line/name on the safe. "SHIRI AUNTIE. HAHAHA. SHE'S SO SHORT!" heh. I didn't realize how small she used to be. We still use her scarves to cover everything up after work. Oh, but now we have actual soap. Which I thought was really weird; she only used dish detergent, even to wash her hands.

How many lives does one life touch?

bottle it up.

There are girls across the nation that will eat this up.

I haven't been able to write a solid blog post in weeks.

Only gonna get what you give away.

kids.

What are you looking at?
YOU'RE EYEBROW'S TURNING GREEN!
No it's not!
Yeah it is!
No! The stitches are blue; that's what you're seeing.
Why'd you want to get blue stitches, you're a girl!
I didn't choose my stitches color! It's because I have dark hair and black stitches would've gotten lost in my eyebrows.
Which by the way are green.
NO THEY'RE NOT.
Yeah. I can see the green all on top of your eyebrows.
Diego, do you're work.

...

HEY NOOR. YOU'RE EYEBROW IS TURNING GREEN!
-_-


i actually really love working with them.

My pedestal

I see it all but I can't do anything
Leave her alone
Stop doing that
Give it a shot
Concentrate on the important things
Get more sleep
Talk to him
Spend more time with them
Don't Disappoint Me.
Eat. Sleep. Laugh. Live. Smile. Run. Love.
[I always start with eat]
I'm not ready.


Dramatic? Hell yes.

Fuck does really sum it all up.