just call me ignorant.

i've been reading a lot about feminism and abortion rights lately which has again made me rethink my views yet agaain.

so i'm still all for feminism. the kind of feminism that leads to respecting yourself and loving yourself. and not letting anyone believe that they are below another person simply because of gender. because it's ridiculous that women make 73cents for every dollar that men make now when in 1968, women made 80cents to the dollar. how has it declined 7cents in these years? aren't we supposed to be progressing? gah.

also. i know that people who claim to be pro-life come off as ignorant or not caring but that's because most people who are pro-life tend to be so just because they are religious and their religion is against abortion or because they don't agree with killing an innocent person. most people don't take the time to learn the facts. i used to be one of those religious pro-life people who don't like killing innocents when i was younger. then i became more politically aware and decided that i could personally be pro-life but for america as a democracy to function, we needed to be pro-choice. because everyone deserves the choice, right? now i don't really know where i am. i know that there are fewer than 2,000 abortions a year. but isn't it ironic that the main girl in roe v. wade is now a strong pro-life activist? i know that people mostly get abortions because they were either raped, or can't financially support a child, or are not ready for children. and at the risk of sounding inconsiderate, i don't think that these are all valid reasons. i can't believe that they are all valid reasons. rape is a heinous crime that i can not fully understand and will hopefully never have to but i don't know if i can believe that "every time the rape victim looks at her child, she will be reminded of the rape." also, i may be old-fashioned but i firmly believe that little 15/16 year olds should not be having sex. but if they are having sex, they better be hella careful. (side note: i've come to the conclusion that hella is a great word that just fits in places where other words can't)

also. i understand the chances of having a "fucked up child." but i read something yesterday that was pretty powerful. "you've done this to yourself, and only you can get yourself out of this." no. this doesn't apply to everything. i'm not stupid. there are so many things out of our control. but there is more in our control than we realize. at least more than i realize.