So, I realized just now, well, no. That's a lie. Not just now. I realized this a couple days ago when Ibrahim read the first two posts in my blog. This isn't me. I came into my room and he was laughing, really hard. He was on the computer so I came over and was like, YOU'RE READING MY BLOG?!? And all he said was "I don't know."
jerk.
:]
I punched his arm, which did absolutely nothing to him. The days when I was stronger than him are over.
I love Ibrahim. Random? Yeah, not so much. I can count on him to be straight up with me. Yeah, he can be mean and a jerk but he is honest. I like honest/blunt people. That's why I'm mostly blunt, unless I know that a certain person can't take it. Then I will sugar coat my bluntness. It's not really bluntness anymore.
OK. STOP RAMBLING.
[see. Now that rambling is more like. I'm really scatterbrained. I am constantly thinking at least 6 different things. ]
But back to the reason for this blog:
After the punch, he started laughing again.
"You're a jerk."
"HAHAHA. WHY? AHAHA"
"Because you're laughing at my blog."
"But, it's so funny!"
"WHY?!?!"
"Because you sound so emo."
*glare*
"No, Noor, think about it. Are you really this emo?"
"*glare*
"I know you can get emo and you help people with their problems, but you aren't always like this."
*?*
"I've read parts of your blog before, when I still wrote in mine, and it sounds like you're trying to impress someone. You do think these things, but you aren't always like this."
"You don't know what's in my mind."
"Yes. I do! We sing the same songs!"
*smile*
"You can write this stuff in your blog but write about things that you really care about. Write about ransom notes [HENCE THE BLOG ABOUT RANSOM NOTES] and zombies and me and your friends and timmy and the color orange and pumkins." [YES. HE SAID PUMKINS:)]
"Ok. Then get out of here boy."
"HMPH. How rude!"
"What are you gonna do now?"
"I DON'T KNOWWW."
"YOU JERK!"
"MUWHAHHAHAHA"
Yeah. I love us.
But he's right. These blogs haven't flown from me. Well some have. But I don't want to write a blog every time I feel "emo." I want to write one when I feel, see, hear something good too.
I just want to discover what the real Noor writes like.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
ransom notes.
How to Write a Ransom Note:
Always be direct! While you may spend hours crafting your note, it’s important to remember that the average ransom-note reader will likely spend just ten to twelve seconds reading your hard work before breaking down into complete hysterics and waving your note helplessly in the air.
But ten seconds is all you need to effectively communicate your point. Do not waste time with vague threats when a simple “Or Else!” will do. If you have precise plans in the event the ransom does not come through, express these using active power verbs. Compare the difference between:
“Give me the money or I will hurt your husband.”
and
“Deliver the money or I will maim your husband.”
Constructing Your Note
Sometimes, all that separates your note from countless other threats is the presentation. You should choose a design that is eye-catching, but not overly flashy. Remember, you’ve got only ten seconds to make a lasting impression!
The first step, obviously, is your paper. Simple typing paper tears easily and may soak through to the point of illegibility if the reader is crying. You should choose a heavy cardstock that will withstand the rigorous wear and tear to come—remember, a good ransom note will be passed around dozens of hands: friends, family members, and local, state, and possibly federal authorities.
When selecting your letters, do not just cut up any old papers at hand. The careful, considerate ransom-note writer will pay attention to color scheme and font compatibility. While a white typeface may look great in a magazine, on an off-white background, it may prove hard to read. And mixing and matching various sizes, shapes, and serifs of your fonts could prove harsh on the eyes. Ultimately, you want the reader to smoothly and quickly get to the end of your note without ever stumbling over an awkward logo.
Finally, remember that neatness counts! An X-acto knife is preferable over scissors to slice clean, exact lines around your letters, and rubber cement is better than regular glue, because you can easily wipe away the excess.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
summer. . .
So summer is supposed to be fun and relaxing. Where you hang out with friends. But it feels like that's all I've been doing. Summer is not what I expected. Sure, I like busy summers but now I just want a break. A break from summer? I want to keep hanging out with friends but I want to be home more. I know that doesn't make sense. I don't know what I want. I just need more family time? And it's mainly because of my busy schedule. And my dad's work. We have our family moments, like last night. But I want a family day.
I don't know. I'm tired of going out all the time, but I don't want it to stop.
Oh. And I'm so unbelievably tired of saying I don't know. It seems like that is all I'm saying now a days and I really need it to stop. But that's the thing, I really don't know a lot.
What's wrong with you?
I don't know.
Why are you acting like this?
I don't know.
What should we do with him?
I don't know.
How can we fix this?
I don't know.
I DON'T KNOW.
and I hate that.
I don't know. I'm tired of going out all the time, but I don't want it to stop.
Oh. And I'm so unbelievably tired of saying I don't know. It seems like that is all I'm saying now a days and I really need it to stop. But that's the thing, I really don't know a lot.
What's wrong with you?
I don't know.
Why are you acting like this?
I don't know.
What should we do with him?
I don't know.
How can we fix this?
I don't know.
I DON'T KNOW.
and I hate that.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
This Is What I Do In Summer School.
We had a "How to Write a College Essay" seminar which was basics on how to write essays. yay. So to prevent myself from falling asleep, I wrote about some of the stuff he was talking about. It got interesting at one point.
Love is compromise.
Love is trust.
Love is understanding.
Love is patience.
Love is scary.
Love is a chemical reaction.
People think that love is a great thing that makes you feel great and happy all the time. But it's really not that. Anyone who says that they aren't afraid to fall in love is a fool or doesn't understand love fully. Just listen to the phrase: FALL in love. The thing about love that makes it so scary is that it is so easy to fall right back out of love. To fall in love is a commitment and it's frightening. To love someone, really love someone, hurts. To have your life depend on someone else's. That's scary. To know that if anything ever happened to that person, you would not be able to survive. Love isn't for the independent and self-centered. Love is for those who will put the other person before them and their needs. Those who will ignore their faults. Those who can be completely comfortable around someone. But falling in love and loving someone are 2 completely different things. You can love your family and your friends. But that one person that you are in love with, he matters to you more than you could possibly grasp.
[and then we were forced to write thesis sentences.]
The subconscious is scary. It reveals the true inner thoughts and feelings which people are not ready for. This is why people are afraid of the truth. We live in the cushioned world of lies and make believe. The truth hurts. It makes people nervous. But remaining ignorant prevents the hurt. Is that what you want?
This is why dreams are scary. Not dreams about bananas taking over the world, but real dreams. They represent something. Predict the future? Hopefully not. But they do reveal what is going on now, the the dreamer and the person they may dream about. Even the bananas do. Hurt. Laughter. Fear. Joy. Excitement. Despair. Anger.
Listen to them. They are trying to tell you something.
Love is compromise.
Love is trust.
Love is understanding.
Love is patience.
Love is scary.
Love is a chemical reaction.
People think that love is a great thing that makes you feel great and happy all the time. But it's really not that. Anyone who says that they aren't afraid to fall in love is a fool or doesn't understand love fully. Just listen to the phrase: FALL in love. The thing about love that makes it so scary is that it is so easy to fall right back out of love. To fall in love is a commitment and it's frightening. To love someone, really love someone, hurts. To have your life depend on someone else's. That's scary. To know that if anything ever happened to that person, you would not be able to survive. Love isn't for the independent and self-centered. Love is for those who will put the other person before them and their needs. Those who will ignore their faults. Those who can be completely comfortable around someone. But falling in love and loving someone are 2 completely different things. You can love your family and your friends. But that one person that you are in love with, he matters to you more than you could possibly grasp.
[and then we were forced to write thesis sentences.]
The subconscious is scary. It reveals the true inner thoughts and feelings which people are not ready for. This is why people are afraid of the truth. We live in the cushioned world of lies and make believe. The truth hurts. It makes people nervous. But remaining ignorant prevents the hurt. Is that what you want?
This is why dreams are scary. Not dreams about bananas taking over the world, but real dreams. They represent something. Predict the future? Hopefully not. But they do reveal what is going on now, the the dreamer and the person they may dream about. Even the bananas do. Hurt. Laughter. Fear. Joy. Excitement. Despair. Anger.
Listen to them. They are trying to tell you something.
Helpless
So. Hyperventilating and crying at the same time is not the best idea.
I can't believe i cried that hard. Or cried at all really. The last time I cried that uncontrollably was a year and 35 days ago. I'm surprised that he made me cry.
I was talking to him, well basically yelling at him, about all that I do. I know I'm not perfect and that I am horrible at times but I really care about him. I compromise so much for his happiness and forgive him. But it always feels like I'm the one doing the work in our relationship. I can't say that he never has my back, because he does, but he won't always do things for me. And that's not what I expect. I don't expect him to put me before himself but when he can compromise something that isn't too important to him, he should. I do.
I could feel myself getting weaker. The yelling was getting quieter. My words were breaking up. Voice cracking. I had to force the last few words out. They could barely be counted as a whisper and I ran out. Into my room. Shut the door carefully. My face automatically scrunched into my hands. I had barely taken a step and I started shaking. I fell on my bed and huge wet tears found their way onto my sheets. I stuffed my face into my sheets. I was sobbing loudly. I was kinda shocked. I don't cry loudly. I tried to control it. Couldn't let him hear me. But I couldn't. I got louder and kept on trembling. Gasping for air I stuffed the pillow in my face. And so the hyperventilating began. I forced myself to shut up and got my face out from beneath the pillow. i kept breathing hard but stopped crying loudly. Now just big tears rolled down my face. I got up to get a tissue but how perfect could this be, my tissue box was empty. But my nose didn't care. I just kept running. I found the shirt I went to sleep in last night and stuffed it in my face. Then I stopped. Lay back down on my bed, on my back this time. This whole thing probably took a total of 2 minutes, 3 tops.
This relationship usually doesn't bother me but we he gets like this, I just want him to stop. And I can't fix him. I want to but I don't know what to do anymore. But I just can't leave him. He can't be alone. He needs someone. That's all I can do. Be there.
I can't believe i cried that hard. Or cried at all really. The last time I cried that uncontrollably was a year and 35 days ago. I'm surprised that he made me cry.
I was talking to him, well basically yelling at him, about all that I do. I know I'm not perfect and that I am horrible at times but I really care about him. I compromise so much for his happiness and forgive him. But it always feels like I'm the one doing the work in our relationship. I can't say that he never has my back, because he does, but he won't always do things for me. And that's not what I expect. I don't expect him to put me before himself but when he can compromise something that isn't too important to him, he should. I do.
I could feel myself getting weaker. The yelling was getting quieter. My words were breaking up. Voice cracking. I had to force the last few words out. They could barely be counted as a whisper and I ran out. Into my room. Shut the door carefully. My face automatically scrunched into my hands. I had barely taken a step and I started shaking. I fell on my bed and huge wet tears found their way onto my sheets. I stuffed my face into my sheets. I was sobbing loudly. I was kinda shocked. I don't cry loudly. I tried to control it. Couldn't let him hear me. But I couldn't. I got louder and kept on trembling. Gasping for air I stuffed the pillow in my face. And so the hyperventilating began. I forced myself to shut up and got my face out from beneath the pillow. i kept breathing hard but stopped crying loudly. Now just big tears rolled down my face. I got up to get a tissue but how perfect could this be, my tissue box was empty. But my nose didn't care. I just kept running. I found the shirt I went to sleep in last night and stuffed it in my face. Then I stopped. Lay back down on my bed, on my back this time. This whole thing probably took a total of 2 minutes, 3 tops.
This relationship usually doesn't bother me but we he gets like this, I just want him to stop. And I can't fix him. I want to but I don't know what to do anymore. But I just can't leave him. He can't be alone. He needs someone. That's all I can do. Be there.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Commitments.
Even ice cream is a commitment. Think about it. Once you buy an ice cream cone, you have to finish it right then and there. Either eat it or lose it forever. You can't tuck it away to finish later like you can for a cookie. This doesn't mean that you have put a cookie away, just the idea of being able to store it is what matters. But you need to enjoy the ice cream. No guilt. No worries. Let yourself get into the moment.
So close your eyes and slide your tongue over the ice cream. Let its cool sweetness wash over you. Let yourself taste it. Feel it. It will be incredible. Soft and creamy.
Enjoy every moment.
Don't be afraid of commitment.
So close your eyes and slide your tongue over the ice cream. Let its cool sweetness wash over you. Let yourself taste it. Feel it. It will be incredible. Soft and creamy.
Enjoy every moment.
Don't be afraid of commitment.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
i love my friends.
i wish i could entertain myself for hours like i used to.
i wish i didn't blow people off as much as i have to.
i wish i wasn't so awkward.
i wish we didn't have to go through this.
i wish you would stop.
i wish you would stop.
i wish you would stop.
i wish you had never left.
i wish i could understand you.
i wish you give other people a chance.
i wish you wouldn't care so much.
i wish you would care more.
i wish you would let me.
i wish i could.
i wish you would say something.
i wish i had said something. anything.
i wish you listened.
i wish you would tell me.
i wish we didn't fall apart.
i wish you weren't here.
i wish i could dream happily.
i wish that you would let me in.
i wish that you would stop playing games.
i wish that you could make up your mind.
i wish that you weren't so guarded.
i wish that you never created these walls.
i wish you happiness.
i wish we don't stop.
i wish i could believe.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish that you could see the truth.
i wish i didn't have to avoid it.
i wish i could block some people but not others.
i wish i had time to read.
i wish you had time to sew.
i wish you had time to paint.
i wish you had time to play.
i wish you had time to think.
i wish you had time to relax.
i wish this didn't matter or mean anything or have indirect references.
i wish this wasn't real.
but it is.
yay.
i wish i didn't blow people off as much as i have to.
i wish i wasn't so awkward.
i wish we didn't have to go through this.
i wish you would stop.
i wish you would stop.
i wish you would stop.
i wish you had never left.
i wish i could understand you.
i wish you give other people a chance.
i wish you wouldn't care so much.
i wish you would care more.
i wish you would let me.
i wish i could.
i wish you would say something.
i wish i had said something. anything.
i wish you listened.
i wish you would tell me.
i wish we didn't fall apart.
i wish you weren't here.
i wish i could dream happily.
i wish that you would let me in.
i wish that you would stop playing games.
i wish that you could make up your mind.
i wish that you weren't so guarded.
i wish that you never created these walls.
i wish you happiness.
i wish we don't stop.
i wish i could believe.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish i didn't let you down.
i wish that you could see the truth.
i wish i didn't have to avoid it.
i wish i could block some people but not others.
i wish i had time to read.
i wish you had time to sew.
i wish you had time to paint.
i wish you had time to play.
i wish you had time to think.
i wish you had time to relax.
i wish this didn't matter or mean anything or have indirect references.
i wish this wasn't real.
but it is.
yay.
random phrases going through my head.
i am so fucking sick of this crap.
PIMPLES.
i'm scared.
the inferi in harrypotter looked like mini gollums from lord of the ring.
i have to pee.
and now my foot's asleep.
i talk to my body.
that sounded weirder than it was supposed.
please. stop.
i wish i had more control.
my wall has scratches in it. and it's burned.
kinda sorta maybe possible.
i dont like the smell of nail polish remover.
jerk?
i haven't changed my dry erase board since 2 weeks before school ended. it still has hw on it and finals' week's schedule.
I. LOVE. HARRYPOTTER. WITH. A. FIERY. PASSION. AND. THE. SIXTH. MOVIE. WAS. THE. BEST.
i like colors.
hw upsets me. among other things.
i love you.
no. really. i do.
ahah. yes. i'm talking to you. fairy pony princess girl.
:]
i want to teleport.
how fucking perfect.
i need to stop cussing.
i'm not brave enough to punch people.
i don't like pie.
LOOK INTO MY EYES. ... EVERYTHING I DOOOO. I DO IT FOR YOUUU.
a lot of what i say has 2 meanings. well. sometimes.
PIMPLES.
i'm scared.
the inferi in harrypotter looked like mini gollums from lord of the ring.
i have to pee.
and now my foot's asleep.
i talk to my body.
that sounded weirder than it was supposed.
please. stop.
i wish i had more control.
my wall has scratches in it. and it's burned.
kinda sorta maybe possible.
i dont like the smell of nail polish remover.
jerk?
i haven't changed my dry erase board since 2 weeks before school ended. it still has hw on it and finals' week's schedule.
I. LOVE. HARRYPOTTER. WITH. A. FIERY. PASSION. AND. THE. SIXTH. MOVIE. WAS. THE. BEST.
i like colors.
hw upsets me. among other things.
i love you.
no. really. i do.
ahah. yes. i'm talking to you. fairy pony princess girl.
:]
i want to teleport.
how fucking perfect.
i need to stop cussing.
i'm not brave enough to punch people.
i don't like pie.
LOOK INTO MY EYES. ... EVERYTHING I DOOOO. I DO IT FOR YOUUU.
a lot of what i say has 2 meanings. well. sometimes.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
i love her.
Ifreshtea (10:41:56 PM) : HOW'S OGGY?
Ifreshtea (10:42:09 PM) : DID THE SOIL EAT 100% BIODEGRADABLE??
bestnoor56 (10:42:12 PM) : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
bestnoor56 (10:42:15 PM) : OGGY!
bestnoor56 (10:42:22 PM) : well he was ok at like 6
bestnoor56 (10:42:24 PM) : but now he's out there
bestnoor56 (10:42:26 PM) : in the cold!
Ifreshtea (10:42:56 PM) : oh no!
Ifreshtea (10:42:58 PM) : but he's brave
Ifreshtea (10:43:01 PM) : being our son and all
Ifreshtea (10:43:06 PM) : i'm sure he can handle it
bestnoor56 (10:44:39 PM) : sniff sniff
bestnoor56 (10:44:43 PM) : he's gonna grow up so fast.
Ifreshtea (10:44:54 PM) : i hope he's not a still birth though
Ifreshtea (10:45:02 PM) : he can't die on us!!!
bestnoor56 (10:45:11 PM) : NO!
bestnoor56 (10:45:13 PM) : ARG.
bestnoor56 (10:45:18 PM) : THAT WILL BE HIS GRANDMA'S FAULT.
Ifreshtea (10:45:31 PM) : 
bestnoor56 (10:45:37 PM) : then his other grandma can help create a new oggy son.
Ifreshtea (10:45:42 PM) : lol
Ifreshtea (10:45:46 PM) : awww
Ifreshtea (10:45:53 PM) : i have this new fatherly glow on me
Ifreshtea (10:45:59 PM) : if only you could see me now
Ifreshtea (10:46:03 PM) : all happy and fuzzy inside
bestnoor56 (10:46:04 PM) : i can see you.
Ifreshtea (10:46:07 PM) : CREEPER
Ifreshtea (10:46:15 PM) : I TOLD YOU TO GET THE CAMERAS OUT OF MY ROOM
bestnoor56 (10:46:25 PM) : ;]
bestnoor56 (10:46:30 PM) : i like watching you.
Ifreshtea (11:16:55 PM) : noor
Ifreshtea (11:16:57 PM) : my love
Ifreshtea (11:17:00 PM) : mother of my child
Ifreshtea (11:17:08 PM) : i have to sleep
Ifreshtea (11:17:11 PM) : or at least
Ifreshtea (11:17:25 PM) : lay in bed and stare up at the stars
Ifreshtea (11:17:34 PM) : wondering where the hell my ceiling is
Ifreshtea (11:17:38 PM) : until i fall asleep
bestnoor56 (11:17:43 PM) : i will miss you.
bestnoor56 (11:17:47 PM) : but i will be watch.
bestnoor56 (11:17:50 PM) : go forth. and prosper.
bestnoor56 (11:17:53 PM) : and sleepeth.
Ifreshtea (11:18:54 PM) : \/_\/
Ifreshtea (11:18:57 PM) : no
Ifreshtea (11:18:58 PM) : wait
Ifreshtea (11:19:09 PM) : \_/
Ifreshtea (11:19:10 PM) : no
Ifreshtea (11:19:15 PM) : go forth and prosper
Ifreshtea (11:19:22 PM) : you can't see me
Ifreshtea (11:19:29 PM) : but i'm putting up the hand sign for it
Ifreshtea (11:19:32 PM) : cause i'm spock
Ifreshtea (11:19:33 PM) : (:
bestnoor56 (11:19:41 PM) : AHAHAHA
bestnoor56 (11:19:43 PM) : i can see it!
Ifreshtea (11:19:49 PM) : whoo!
bestnoor56 (11:20:00 PM) : now sleep father of my child.
Ifreshtea (11:20:03 PM) : wait
Ifreshtea (11:20:10 PM) : i have to express things to you
Ifreshtea (11:20:14 PM) : WHAT IF
Ifreshtea (11:20:22 PM) : PPL REALLY DID PUT CAMERAS UP IN OTHER PPLS HOUSES
Ifreshtea (11:20:22 PM) : like
Ifreshtea (11:20:25 PM) : handymen adn stuff
Ifreshtea (11:20:34 PM) : what if they were secretly pedofiles
Ifreshtea (11:20:38 PM) : and when they
Ifreshtea (11:20:39 PM) : idk
Ifreshtea (11:21:11 PM) : remove the popcorn from ppls houses that don't like popcorn ceilings
Ifreshtea (11:21:18 PM) : and then they put a small camera
Ifreshtea (11:21:41 PM) : install a small camera somewhere up on the ceiling
Ifreshtea (11:21:44 PM) : where no one can see
Ifreshtea (11:21:49 PM) : or would notice it
Ifreshtea (11:21:53 PM) : AND WATCH PPL??
bestnoor56 (11:22:36 PM) : AHAHHAAH
bestnoor56 (11:22:45 PM) : so i just searched my room quickly with my eyes
bestnoor56 (11:22:51 PM) : WHAT IF THERE REALLY IS A CAMERA HERE.
Ifreshtea (11:22:57 PM) : oh
Ifreshtea (11:23:01 PM) : we don't have to worry
Ifreshtea (11:23:10 PM) : if someone ever did watch you
Ifreshtea (11:23:18 PM) : they'd be scared out of their mind
Ifreshtea (11:23:23 PM) : and never watch you again
Ifreshtea (11:23:42 PM) : they'd probably sign themselves into a pysche ward
Ifreshtea (11:23:54 PM) : just to get the images of you out of their mind
bestnoor56 (11:24:36 PM) : THEY WOULD NEVER WANT TO GET THESE IMAGES OUT OF THEIR HEADSSSSSSS
bestnoor56 (11:25:04 PM) : I AM BEAUTIFUL.
Ifreshtea (11:25:10 PM) : then you would be to blame for their homicide
bestnoor56 (11:25:34 PM) : NEVERRRRRRRRRRRR
bestnoor56 (11:25:42 PM) : THEY WOULD KEEP WATCHING.
bestnoor56 (11:25:46 PM) : kinda creepy.
bestnoor56 (11:25:48 PM) : BUT FOR YOU.
bestnoor56 (11:25:53 PM) : THEY WOULD BE SO CONFUSED
bestnoor56 (11:25:55 PM) : AND MESMERIZED
bestnoor56 (11:26:01 PM) : THAT THEY WOULD KEEP WATCHING YOU.
bestnoor56 (11:26:03 PM) : FOREVER.
bestnoor56 (11:26:10 PM) : AND THEN EVENTUALLY HANG THEMSELVES
bestnoor56 (11:26:17 PM) : B/C THEY HATE WATCHING YOU BUT CAN'T STOP.
bestnoor56 (11:26:19 PM) : ITS AN ADDICTION.
Ifreshtea (11:26:35 PM) : noor
Ifreshtea (11:26:41 PM) : that's the story of our friendship
i love her.
SPRINTwithme (9:34:16 PM): my mom wanted me to keep a journal this summer
SPRINTwithme (9:34:19 PM): its sitting on my floor
SPRINTwithme (9:34:22 PM): making me feel guilty
bestnoor56 (9:34:54 PM): hahhahaha
bestnoor56 (9:34:58 PM): its on ur floor?
bestnoor56 (9:35:00 PM): from summer?
bestnoor56 (9:35:03 PM): CLEAN UR ROOM
bestnoor56 (9:35:05 PM): hahahahah
SPRINTwithme (9:35:13 PM): im trying
SPRINTwithme (9:35:14 PM): so hard
SPRINTwithme (9:35:16 PM): so scary
SPRINTwithme (9:35:18 PM): so dangerous
SPRINTwithme (11:24:25 PM): i fixed my butt problems with a pillow
SPRINTwithme (11:24:29 PM): and my sleep problems with music
bestnoor56 (11:24:51 PM): u couldhave fixed ur butt problem witha BUTT BAND
SPRINTwithme (11:25:00 PM): HAHHA
SPRINTwithme (11:25:04 PM): GOLLY
SPRINTwithme (11:25:07 PM): WE COULD BE RICH
SPRINTwithme (11:25:13 PM): IF WE INVTED BUTT BAND [AIDS]
bestnoor56 (11:25:28 PM): hahahahahhaha
bestnoor56 (11:26:00 PM): goal in life: to invent a butt band
SPRINTwithme (11:26:06 PM): i spent so long trying t ospell ritch and still got it wrong
SPRINTwithme (11:26:10 PM): wait how do u spell
SPRINTwithme (11:26:13 PM): and yes
SPRINTwithme (11:26:14 PM): we cant die
bestnoor56 (11:26:16 PM): rich
SPRINTwithme (11:26:17 PM): till we invent it
SPRINTwithme (11:26:22 PM): OH YES I WAS RIGHT
bestnoor56 (11:26:28 PM): hahahhahaha
bestnoor56 (11:26:50 PM): haha and well it looks like we're not gonna die
SPRINTwithme (11:27:36 PM): lol thatd suck
SPRINTwithme (11:27:40 PM): were like 180
SPRINTwithme (11:27:43 PM): and we finally invent it
SPRINTwithme (11:27:47 PM): and were like
SPRINTwithme (11:28:01 PM): 'YES! VICOTRY IS OUR-*falls over dead*
bestnoor56 (9:35:30 PM): I SHALL COME AND HELP YOU!
bestnoor56 (9:35:39 PM): in 8th grade
bestnoor56 (9:35:43 PM): my room was soooooooooooooooooooooo bad
bestnoor56 (9:35:47 PM): like mountains of clothes
bestnoor56 (9:35:51 PM): everywhere
bestnoor56 (9:35:55 PM): and papers in between
SPRINTwithme (9:35:56 PM): [thas how mine is]
SPRINTwithme (9:36:00 PM): zactly
bestnoor56 (9:36:06 PM): so one of my friends had to come over and help me clean
bestnoor56 (9:36:07 PM): HAHAHA
bestnoor56 (9:36:10 PM): so i shall help you!
SPRINTwithme (9:36:22 PM): LOL no..its bad for ur health
SPRINTwithme (9:36:30 PM): once i get it to where i can see floor
SPRINTwithme (9:36:34 PM): i'll let u come in my room
SPRINTwithme (9:36:39 PM): but until then
SPRINTwithme (9:36:46 PM): im avoiding lawsuits
SPRINTwithme (9:36:52 PM): judge judy could ruin our friendship
bestnoor56 (9:36:55 PM): hahhahahah
bestnoor56 (9:37:03 PM): i seriously wont care about the mess
bestnoor56 (9:37:16 PM): and pshhhh even judge judy couldnt ruin this friendship
bestnoor56 (11:17:30 PM): what would you do without me????
SPRINTwithme (11:18:22 PM): sleep
SPRINTwithme (11:18:25 PM): peacefully
SPRINTwithme (11:18:26 PM): hehe
bestnoor56 (11:19:05 PM): but get no hw done
bestnoor56 (11:19:13 PM): and flunk out of highschool
bestnoor56 (11:19:17 PM): and have to join the circus
bestnoor56 (11:19:20 PM): and give up ur night job
bestnoor56 (11:19:27 PM): and then the circus would kick you out
bestnoor56 (11:19:35 PM): cuz u'd keep shouting 2+2=fish
SPRINTwithme (11:19:37 PM): theres buff guys in the circus
bestnoor56 (11:19:41 PM): and then u'd live with the other hobos
SPRINTwithme (11:19:42 PM): hohohohohohohohohohoho
bestnoor56 (11:19:48 PM): in hobopaloozaville
SPRINTwithme (11:19:56 PM): HOHOHO
bestnoor56 (11:20:07 PM): that is your life story
SPRINTwithme (11:20:53 PM): i hope ur not really psychc
bestnoor56 (11:21:03 PM): HOHOH
SPRINTwithme (11:12:16 PM): hahaha. people find ways to hide away when the stars speak
SPRINTwithme (11:12:27 PM): they fear the power of mother moon and father sun
bestnoor56 (11:12:31 PM): AHAHAHHAHAH
bestnoor56 (11:12:34 PM): ohbother
SPRINTwithme (11:12:44 PM): lol we should like
SPRINTwithme (11:12:49 PM): volunteer in english tomorrow
SPRINTwithme (11:12:52 PM): and talk like that
SPRINTwithme (11:12:56 PM): 'sister taylor'
bestnoor56 (11:13:03 PM): OMG
bestnoor56 (11:13:05 PM): WE SHOULD
bestnoor56 (11:13:15 PM): A SIGN FROM THE HEAVENS AND OUT OF HTE BLUE
SPRINTwithme (11:13:24 PM): hahahahahahahaah
SPRINTwithme (11:13:29 PM): lol when its like
SPRINTwithme (11:13:33 PM): taylor asks a question
SPRINTwithme (11:13:38 PM): and theres an akward silence
SPRINTwithme (11:13:49 PM): you can go A SIGN FROM THE HEAVANS
SPRINTwithme (11:13:51 PM): i cant spell
SPRINTwithme (11:13:55 PM): andi'll go AND OUT OF THE BLUE
bestnoor56 (11:14:00 PM): no one can
SPRINTwithme (11:14:02 PM): and we'll just walk around looking possesed
bestnoor56 (11:14:03 PM): YES
SPRINTwithme (11:14:06 PM): hahah
bestnoor56 (11:14:07 PM): hahahhahaha
bestnoor56 (11:14:14 PM): i will actually do the sign fromt he heavens
bestnoor56 (11:14:18 PM): but walking around
bestnoor56 (11:14:20 PM): probablly not
SPRINTwithme (11:14:37 PM): LOL i think she might want us to explain
SPRINTwithme (11:14:44 PM): why were recieving messages
SPRINTwithme (11:14:51 PM): from otherworldly beings
bestnoor56 (11:14:54 PM): WE'RE PSYCHIC
SPRINTwithme (11:14:55 PM): in the middle of 6th per
bestnoor56 (11:14:57 PM): AND WITCHES
SPRINTwithme (11:14:57 PM): HAHAHAHAH
SPRINTwithme (9:18:58 PM): but but but i have an idea
SPRINTwithme (9:19:01 PM): [lolll!]
SPRINTwithme (9:19:10 PM): if we handcuff ourselves to each other
SPRINTwithme (9:19:14 PM): when one of gets saved
SPRINTwithme (9:19:16 PM): so does the other
SPRINTwithme (9:19:18 PM): but then
SPRINTwithme (9:19:28 PM): we also lower our chances of getting saved in the first place
SPRINTwithme (9:19:32 PM): and if u get eatin
SPRINTwithme (9:19:39 PM): i have to cary u around while im trying to run
SPRINTwithme (9:19:44 PM): like if they only eat part of u
SPRINTwithme (9:19:46 PM): and u cant run
SPRINTwithme (9:19:49 PM): and u'll slow me down
SPRINTwithme (9:19:52 PM): then im screwed
bestnoor56 (9:19:55 PM): but
bestnoor56 (9:19:59 PM): you couldn't live wihtout me anyway
bestnoor56 (9:20:02 PM): so then
bestnoor56 (9:20:11 PM): if i get half eaten
bestnoor56 (9:20:12 PM): then its ok
bestnoor56 (9:20:16 PM): b/c you'll need to die too
SPRINTwithme (9:20:26 PM): i cant live without
SPRINTwithme (9:20:27 PM): so
SPRINTwithme (9:20:30 PM): hopefully
SPRINTwithme (9:20:38 PM): the zombie will at least leave ur hand in the hand cuff
SPRINTwithme (9:20:43 PM): that way u'll always be with me
SPRINTwithme (9:20:50 PM): i'll be like YAY NOOR UR STILL HERE!
SPRINTwithme (12:52:11 AM): shooot me
bestnoor56 (12:52:35 AM): only if you shoot me first
bestnoor56 (12:52:43 AM): WE CAN SHOOT EACH OTHER AT THE SAME TIME
SPRINTwithme (12:53:03 AM): no...i can see that like 'DAYUM MY FOOT
SPRINTwithme (12:53:10 AM): 'who cares YOU SHOT MY NOSE OFF'
bestnoor56 (12:53:47 AM): well, we'll just have to keep trying
bestnoor56 (12:53:59 AM): and you know what's sad
bestnoor56 (12:54:02 AM): i can see that happening
bestnoor56 (12:54:12 AM): we be-eth dorkeths
SPRINTwithme (12:54:28 AM): lol me too
SPRINTwithme (12:54:34 AM): and then when were in the hospital
SPRINTwithme (12:54:38 AM): we'll be laffing about it
bestnoor56 (12:54:53 AM): HAHAAAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAAHAHHAHAHA
bestnoor56 (12:55:03 AM): they'll think we suffered from brain damage
SPRINTwithme (12:55:11 AM): *know
bestnoor56 (12:55:13 AM): without realizing that we've always been like this
bestnoor56 (12:55:20 AM): and then lock us up
SPRINTwithme (12:55:21 AM): hahahaha
bestnoor56 (12:55:24 AM): well
bestnoor56 (12:55:29 AM): as long as we get to share a cell.
bestnoor56 (12:55:32 AM): even if we dont.
bestnoor56 (12:55:34 AM): i'll still talk to you
SPRINTwithme (12:55:49 AM): lolllll i'll be ranting to you
SPRINTwithme (12:55:56 AM): and then they'll kill us
SPRINTwithme (12:56:01 AM): and disect our brains
SPRINTwithme (12:56:11 AM): 'hm apparently this ones missing the part for math'
SPRINTwithme (12:56:24 AM): 'oh dude thats weird..this one shows that she thot everything was magic
bestnoor56 (12:56:42 AM): AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAH
bestnoor56 (12:56:45 AM): *knew
bestnoor56 (12:56:55 AM): [fart]
SPRINTwithme (12:57:04 AM): HAHAHAHAHAHHA ur a dork
bestnoor56 (12:57:22 AM): and thats our life story.
SPRINTwithme (12:57:48 AM): oh, mrs taylor would be so proud
SPRINTwithme (12:36:31 AM): silly goose
SPRINTwithme (12:36:39 AM): \-_-/
SPRINTwithme (12:36:44 AM): i am darth vader
SPRINTwithme (12:36:50 AM): luke, i am your father
SPRINTwithme (12:36:58 AM): *beathing heavy*
SPRINTwithme (12:37:02 AM): HOLY CRAP SOMEONE SHOT ME
SPRINTwithme (12:37:04 AM): I MEAN SHOOT
SPRINTwithme (12:37:06 AM): W/E
SPRINTwithme (12:37:07 AM): LOL
SPRINTwithme (12:37:08 AM): HAHA
SPRINTwithme (12:37:10 AM): MAN DOWN
SPRINTwithme (12:37:14 AM): man under ground
SPRINTwithme (12:37:17 AM): man digging tunnel
SPRINTwithme (12:37:19 AM): man lost
SPRINTwithme (12:37:20 AM): man lonely
SPRINTwithme (12:37:28 AM): man found ant!
SPRINTwithme (12:37:28 AM): man make friend
SPRINTwithme (12:37:28 AM): man hungry..
SPRINTwithme (12:37:29 AM): man eat ant
SPRINTwithme (12:37:31 AM): man full
SPRINTwithme (12:37:33 AM): man sleep
SPRINTwithme (12:37:35 AM): man wake up
SPRINTwithme (12:37:38 AM): man climb out whole
SPRINTwithme (12:37:44 AM): man kill himself
bestnoor56 (12:37:44 AM): hole*
SPRINTwithme (12:37:45 AM): cuz man
SPRINTwithme (12:37:47 AM): is
SPRINTwithme (12:37:48 AM): evil
SPRINTwithme (12:37:52 AM): THAT IS MY POEM
SPRINTwithme (12:37:56 AM): SHUDDUM DONT RUIN IT
SPRINTwithme (12:36:48 AM): damn. i fucking love you.
bestnoor56 (12:37:43 AM): profanity at its best.
SPRINTwithme (9:34:19 PM): its sitting on my floor
SPRINTwithme (9:34:22 PM): making me feel guilty
bestnoor56 (9:34:54 PM): hahhahaha
bestnoor56 (9:34:58 PM): its on ur floor?
bestnoor56 (9:35:00 PM): from summer?
bestnoor56 (9:35:03 PM): CLEAN UR ROOM
bestnoor56 (9:35:05 PM): hahahahah
SPRINTwithme (9:35:13 PM): im trying
SPRINTwithme (9:35:14 PM): so hard
SPRINTwithme (9:35:16 PM): so scary
SPRINTwithme (9:35:18 PM): so dangerous
SPRINTwithme (11:24:25 PM): i fixed my butt problems with a pillow
SPRINTwithme (11:24:29 PM): and my sleep problems with music
bestnoor56 (11:24:51 PM): u couldhave fixed ur butt problem witha BUTT BAND
SPRINTwithme (11:25:00 PM): HAHHA
SPRINTwithme (11:25:04 PM): GOLLY
SPRINTwithme (11:25:07 PM): WE COULD BE RICH
SPRINTwithme (11:25:13 PM): IF WE INVTED BUTT BAND [AIDS]
bestnoor56 (11:25:28 PM): hahahahahhaha
bestnoor56 (11:26:00 PM): goal in life: to invent a butt band
SPRINTwithme (11:26:06 PM): i spent so long trying t ospell ritch and still got it wrong
SPRINTwithme (11:26:10 PM): wait how do u spell
SPRINTwithme (11:26:13 PM): and yes
SPRINTwithme (11:26:14 PM): we cant die
bestnoor56 (11:26:16 PM): rich
SPRINTwithme (11:26:17 PM): till we invent it
SPRINTwithme (11:26:22 PM): OH YES I WAS RIGHT
bestnoor56 (11:26:28 PM): hahahhahaha
bestnoor56 (11:26:50 PM): haha and well it looks like we're not gonna die
SPRINTwithme (11:27:36 PM): lol thatd suck
SPRINTwithme (11:27:40 PM): were like 180
SPRINTwithme (11:27:43 PM): and we finally invent it
SPRINTwithme (11:27:47 PM): and were like
SPRINTwithme (11:28:01 PM): 'YES! VICOTRY IS OUR-*falls over dead*
bestnoor56 (9:35:30 PM): I SHALL COME AND HELP YOU!
bestnoor56 (9:35:39 PM): in 8th grade
bestnoor56 (9:35:43 PM): my room was soooooooooooooooooooooo bad
bestnoor56 (9:35:47 PM): like mountains of clothes
bestnoor56 (9:35:51 PM): everywhere
bestnoor56 (9:35:55 PM): and papers in between
SPRINTwithme (9:35:56 PM): [thas how mine is]
SPRINTwithme (9:36:00 PM): zactly
bestnoor56 (9:36:06 PM): so one of my friends had to come over and help me clean
bestnoor56 (9:36:07 PM): HAHAHA
bestnoor56 (9:36:10 PM): so i shall help you!
SPRINTwithme (9:36:22 PM): LOL no..its bad for ur health
SPRINTwithme (9:36:30 PM): once i get it to where i can see floor
SPRINTwithme (9:36:34 PM): i'll let u come in my room
SPRINTwithme (9:36:39 PM): but until then
SPRINTwithme (9:36:46 PM): im avoiding lawsuits
SPRINTwithme (9:36:52 PM): judge judy could ruin our friendship
bestnoor56 (9:36:55 PM): hahhahahah
bestnoor56 (9:37:03 PM): i seriously wont care about the mess
bestnoor56 (9:37:16 PM): and pshhhh even judge judy couldnt ruin this friendship
bestnoor56 (11:17:30 PM): what would you do without me????
SPRINTwithme (11:18:22 PM): sleep
SPRINTwithme (11:18:25 PM): peacefully
SPRINTwithme (11:18:26 PM): hehe
bestnoor56 (11:19:05 PM): but get no hw done
bestnoor56 (11:19:13 PM): and flunk out of highschool
bestnoor56 (11:19:17 PM): and have to join the circus
bestnoor56 (11:19:20 PM): and give up ur night job
bestnoor56 (11:19:27 PM): and then the circus would kick you out
bestnoor56 (11:19:35 PM): cuz u'd keep shouting 2+2=fish
SPRINTwithme (11:19:37 PM): theres buff guys in the circus
bestnoor56 (11:19:41 PM): and then u'd live with the other hobos
SPRINTwithme (11:19:42 PM): hohohohohohohohohohoho
bestnoor56 (11:19:48 PM): in hobopaloozaville
SPRINTwithme (11:19:56 PM): HOHOHO
bestnoor56 (11:20:07 PM): that is your life story
SPRINTwithme (11:20:53 PM): i hope ur not really psychc
bestnoor56 (11:21:03 PM): HOHOH
SPRINTwithme (11:12:16 PM): hahaha. people find ways to hide away when the stars speak
SPRINTwithme (11:12:27 PM): they fear the power of mother moon and father sun
bestnoor56 (11:12:31 PM): AHAHAHHAHAH
bestnoor56 (11:12:34 PM): ohbother
SPRINTwithme (11:12:44 PM): lol we should like
SPRINTwithme (11:12:49 PM): volunteer in english tomorrow
SPRINTwithme (11:12:52 PM): and talk like that
SPRINTwithme (11:12:56 PM): 'sister taylor'
bestnoor56 (11:13:03 PM): OMG
bestnoor56 (11:13:05 PM): WE SHOULD
bestnoor56 (11:13:15 PM): A SIGN FROM THE HEAVENS AND OUT OF HTE BLUE
SPRINTwithme (11:13:24 PM): hahahahahahahaah
SPRINTwithme (11:13:29 PM): lol when its like
SPRINTwithme (11:13:33 PM): taylor asks a question
SPRINTwithme (11:13:38 PM): and theres an akward silence
SPRINTwithme (11:13:49 PM): you can go A SIGN FROM THE HEAVANS
SPRINTwithme (11:13:51 PM): i cant spell
SPRINTwithme (11:13:55 PM): andi'll go AND OUT OF THE BLUE
bestnoor56 (11:14:00 PM): no one can
SPRINTwithme (11:14:02 PM): and we'll just walk around looking possesed
bestnoor56 (11:14:03 PM): YES
SPRINTwithme (11:14:06 PM): hahah
bestnoor56 (11:14:07 PM): hahahhahaha
bestnoor56 (11:14:14 PM): i will actually do the sign fromt he heavens
bestnoor56 (11:14:18 PM): but walking around
bestnoor56 (11:14:20 PM): probablly not
SPRINTwithme (11:14:37 PM): LOL i think she might want us to explain
SPRINTwithme (11:14:44 PM): why were recieving messages
SPRINTwithme (11:14:51 PM): from otherworldly beings
bestnoor56 (11:14:54 PM): WE'RE PSYCHIC
SPRINTwithme (11:14:55 PM): in the middle of 6th per
bestnoor56 (11:14:57 PM): AND WITCHES
SPRINTwithme (11:14:57 PM): HAHAHAHAH
SPRINTwithme (9:18:58 PM): but but but i have an idea
SPRINTwithme (9:19:01 PM): [lolll!]
SPRINTwithme (9:19:10 PM): if we handcuff ourselves to each other
SPRINTwithme (9:19:14 PM): when one of gets saved
SPRINTwithme (9:19:16 PM): so does the other
SPRINTwithme (9:19:18 PM): but then
SPRINTwithme (9:19:28 PM): we also lower our chances of getting saved in the first place
SPRINTwithme (9:19:32 PM): and if u get eatin
SPRINTwithme (9:19:39 PM): i have to cary u around while im trying to run
SPRINTwithme (9:19:44 PM): like if they only eat part of u
SPRINTwithme (9:19:46 PM): and u cant run
SPRINTwithme (9:19:49 PM): and u'll slow me down
SPRINTwithme (9:19:52 PM): then im screwed
bestnoor56 (9:19:55 PM): but
bestnoor56 (9:19:59 PM): you couldn't live wihtout me anyway
bestnoor56 (9:20:02 PM): so then
bestnoor56 (9:20:11 PM): if i get half eaten
bestnoor56 (9:20:12 PM): then its ok
bestnoor56 (9:20:16 PM): b/c you'll need to die too
SPRINTwithme (9:20:26 PM): i cant live without
SPRINTwithme (9:20:27 PM): so
SPRINTwithme (9:20:30 PM): hopefully
SPRINTwithme (9:20:38 PM): the zombie will at least leave ur hand in the hand cuff
SPRINTwithme (9:20:43 PM): that way u'll always be with me
SPRINTwithme (9:20:50 PM): i'll be like YAY NOOR UR STILL HERE!
SPRINTwithme (12:52:11 AM): shooot me
bestnoor56 (12:52:35 AM): only if you shoot me first
bestnoor56 (12:52:43 AM): WE CAN SHOOT EACH OTHER AT THE SAME TIME
SPRINTwithme (12:53:03 AM): no...i can see that like 'DAYUM MY FOOT
SPRINTwithme (12:53:10 AM): 'who cares YOU SHOT MY NOSE OFF'
bestnoor56 (12:53:47 AM): well, we'll just have to keep trying
bestnoor56 (12:53:59 AM): and you know what's sad
bestnoor56 (12:54:02 AM): i can see that happening
bestnoor56 (12:54:12 AM): we be-eth dorkeths
SPRINTwithme (12:54:28 AM): lol me too
SPRINTwithme (12:54:34 AM): and then when were in the hospital
SPRINTwithme (12:54:38 AM): we'll be laffing about it
bestnoor56 (12:54:53 AM): HAHAAAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAAHAHHAHAHA
bestnoor56 (12:55:03 AM): they'll think we suffered from brain damage
SPRINTwithme (12:55:11 AM): *know
bestnoor56 (12:55:13 AM): without realizing that we've always been like this
bestnoor56 (12:55:20 AM): and then lock us up
SPRINTwithme (12:55:21 AM): hahahaha
bestnoor56 (12:55:24 AM): well
bestnoor56 (12:55:29 AM): as long as we get to share a cell.
bestnoor56 (12:55:32 AM): even if we dont.
bestnoor56 (12:55:34 AM): i'll still talk to you
SPRINTwithme (12:55:49 AM): lolllll i'll be ranting to you
SPRINTwithme (12:55:56 AM): and then they'll kill us
SPRINTwithme (12:56:01 AM): and disect our brains
SPRINTwithme (12:56:11 AM): 'hm apparently this ones missing the part for math'
SPRINTwithme (12:56:24 AM): 'oh dude thats weird..this one shows that she thot everything was magic
bestnoor56 (12:56:42 AM): AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAH
bestnoor56 (12:56:45 AM): *knew
bestnoor56 (12:56:55 AM): [fart]
SPRINTwithme (12:57:04 AM): HAHAHAHAHAHHA ur a dork
bestnoor56 (12:57:22 AM): and thats our life story.
SPRINTwithme (12:57:48 AM): oh, mrs taylor would be so proud
SPRINTwithme (12:36:31 AM): silly goose
SPRINTwithme (12:36:39 AM): \-_-/
SPRINTwithme (12:36:44 AM): i am darth vader
SPRINTwithme (12:36:50 AM): luke, i am your father
SPRINTwithme (12:36:58 AM): *beathing heavy*
SPRINTwithme (12:37:02 AM): HOLY CRAP SOMEONE SHOT ME
SPRINTwithme (12:37:04 AM): I MEAN SHOOT
SPRINTwithme (12:37:06 AM): W/E
SPRINTwithme (12:37:07 AM): LOL
SPRINTwithme (12:37:08 AM): HAHA
SPRINTwithme (12:37:10 AM): MAN DOWN
SPRINTwithme (12:37:14 AM): man under ground
SPRINTwithme (12:37:17 AM): man digging tunnel
SPRINTwithme (12:37:19 AM): man lost
SPRINTwithme (12:37:20 AM): man lonely
SPRINTwithme (12:37:28 AM): man found ant!
SPRINTwithme (12:37:28 AM): man make friend
SPRINTwithme (12:37:28 AM): man hungry..
SPRINTwithme (12:37:29 AM): man eat ant
SPRINTwithme (12:37:31 AM): man full
SPRINTwithme (12:37:33 AM): man sleep
SPRINTwithme (12:37:35 AM): man wake up
SPRINTwithme (12:37:38 AM): man climb out whole
SPRINTwithme (12:37:44 AM): man kill himself
bestnoor56 (12:37:44 AM): hole*
SPRINTwithme (12:37:45 AM): cuz man
SPRINTwithme (12:37:47 AM): is
SPRINTwithme (12:37:48 AM): evil
SPRINTwithme (12:37:52 AM): THAT IS MY POEM
SPRINTwithme (12:37:56 AM): SHUDDUM DONT RUIN IT
SPRINTwithme (12:36:48 AM): damn. i fucking love you.
bestnoor56 (12:37:43 AM): profanity at its best.
The Piano Song.
The Piano Song by Meiko
Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you
And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
Jealous of the way they walk, the way *they* talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got
Song text taken from stlyrics.com
I'm jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When I just want to be the way we were
And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
Well, I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me
Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you
And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
Jealous of the way they walk, the way *they* talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got
Song text taken from stlyrics.com
I'm jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When I just want to be the way we were
And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
Well, I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me
expectations.
blogs are intimidating.
what am i supposed to write.
anything.
everything.
bare my soul?
or just write pointless rants?
place for me to vent?
well i got friends for that.
then what?
are people expecting something...great? interesting? funny? depressing? deep? weird?
that's what i really don't like. Expectations. I really don't want to live them down. Expectations and Reactions. The reactions are to a specific moment. I didn't know how I was going to react. How I was supposed to react. And that's what sucks. There are a certain code ways to do things and if you don't then there is something wrong with you. I'm not one to conform to other people's ideals just because it is what they think is right. What about what I think? That matters too. People expect me to act a certain way. "You're not your perky self today." Well, I'm sorry. I just don't feel like a perky person today. If I'm quiet for a while, something must be wrong. Because Noor is the funny and loud one. She is always expected to be funny and loud. Well, I can be but I'm not always. I can't eliminate expectations, nor do I want to.
So don't expect this blog to be great, interesting, funny, depressing, deep, weird.
I'm just going to write. And hope that it makes sense.
So you can just stop reading right now.
what am i supposed to write.
anything.
everything.
bare my soul?
or just write pointless rants?
place for me to vent?
well i got friends for that.
then what?
are people expecting something...great? interesting? funny? depressing? deep? weird?
that's what i really don't like. Expectations. I really don't want to live them down. Expectations and Reactions. The reactions are to a specific moment. I didn't know how I was going to react. How I was supposed to react. And that's what sucks. There are a certain code ways to do things and if you don't then there is something wrong with you. I'm not one to conform to other people's ideals just because it is what they think is right. What about what I think? That matters too. People expect me to act a certain way. "You're not your perky self today." Well, I'm sorry. I just don't feel like a perky person today. If I'm quiet for a while, something must be wrong. Because Noor is the funny and loud one. She is always expected to be funny and loud. Well, I can be but I'm not always. I can't eliminate expectations, nor do I want to.
So don't expect this blog to be great, interesting, funny, depressing, deep, weird.
I'm just going to write. And hope that it makes sense.
So you can just stop reading right now.
15 April 2009
I found this on facebook as a saved draft. I was an angsty girl. Why am I posting it up here? I really don't know. You try figuring me out.
i hate that i shake. i'd like to think that it's only because im cold but i know its not. i mean 10 months is plenty of time. she wasnt even related to me. then why do i fucking care so much. i loved her. more than i could possibly tell. she was beautiful. i didnt go see her in the hospital. b/c i was selfish and didnt think that she could die. dont try to tell me that i'm not selfish and it was only human tendency that i didnt go see her. i didnt want to see her sick. her daughter said that she wouldn't have wanted me to see her sick anyway. but thats a lie. thats liek saying that i dont want you to see me when im sick, but the truth is i would want ppl to see me. well ppl who i cared about and who cared about me. just to know that they are supporting me.
its not her death that gets me. its my behavior while she was sick and the day she died. I WAS AT THE CLASS BONFIRE WHEN SHE DIED. I WAS HAVING FUN. I DIDNT THINK ABOUT HER AT ALL. MY PARENTS WERE AT THE HOSPITAL AND THEY HAD TOLD ME THAT THE DOCTOR SAID THAT SHE ONLY HAD A COUPLE OF DAYS/HOURS TO LIVE. i didnt believe it. i wanted to go to the bonfire so i found other means of transportation. i had a great time at the bonfire but now i dont even remember it. i remember parts but faintly. but my aunt. sigh. she mattered way more to me than any bonfire.
i hate that i shake. i'd like to think that it's only because im cold but i know its not. i mean 10 months is plenty of time. she wasnt even related to me. then why do i fucking care so much. i loved her. more than i could possibly tell. she was beautiful. i didnt go see her in the hospital. b/c i was selfish and didnt think that she could die. dont try to tell me that i'm not selfish and it was only human tendency that i didnt go see her. i didnt want to see her sick. her daughter said that she wouldn't have wanted me to see her sick anyway. but thats a lie. thats liek saying that i dont want you to see me when im sick, but the truth is i would want ppl to see me. well ppl who i cared about and who cared about me. just to know that they are supporting me.
its not her death that gets me. its my behavior while she was sick and the day she died. I WAS AT THE CLASS BONFIRE WHEN SHE DIED. I WAS HAVING FUN. I DIDNT THINK ABOUT HER AT ALL. MY PARENTS WERE AT THE HOSPITAL AND THEY HAD TOLD ME THAT THE DOCTOR SAID THAT SHE ONLY HAD A COUPLE OF DAYS/HOURS TO LIVE. i didnt believe it. i wanted to go to the bonfire so i found other means of transportation. i had a great time at the bonfire but now i dont even remember it. i remember parts but faintly. but my aunt. sigh. she mattered way more to me than any bonfire.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Walls.
I'm slowly losing. And I'm not the only one who feels it. I just. sigh. I can't change things or people. It is 1:04 am and I'm in a pretty helpless mood. I just hate all these walls that she's built. I don't know why she doesn't trust me anymore. I haven't done anything to break her trust. Really. I haven't. I don't tell anyone her problems and I'm completely honest with her. She wasn't always like this. She used to tell me everything and anything. The thing about friendship, well close friendship, that I love is that I can talk to that person without really needed to think before I speak. Some thinking is obviously involved but i can say anything and it would be okay. I wouldn't be judged or shunned. I only have three people who I really feel like I can tell anything. I felt like we could say anything but now I'm not so sure. I still tell her everything but I don't know if she feels like she can tell me anything. I want to be there for her so badly. Everyone needs a friend, an outlet. Someone or something that they can depend on. I know people don't like becoming dependent on others but sometimes it's necessary. The thing about friends is that they make life more enjoyable. I want to make her life more enjoyable and help her. But if she won't open up, then I don't know how I can help.
I'm not useless. I want to help. But just wanting to do something is not always enough.
I am reliable. I just have a lot going on. I can make time. I really need to. I want to be there. I am here.
I'm not useless. I want to help. But just wanting to do something is not always enough.
I am reliable. I just have a lot going on. I can make time. I really need to. I want to be there. I am here.
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