expectations.

blogs are intimidating.
what am i supposed to write.
anything.
everything.
bare my soul?
or just write pointless rants?
place for me to vent?
well i got friends for that.
then what?
are people expecting something...great? interesting? funny? depressing? deep? weird?
that's what i really don't like. Expectations. I really don't want to live them down. Expectations and Reactions. The reactions are to a specific moment. I didn't know how I was going to react. How I was supposed to react. And that's what sucks. There are a certain code ways to do things and if you don't then there is something wrong with you. I'm not one to conform to other people's ideals just because it is what they think is right. What about what I think? That matters too. People expect me to act a certain way. "You're not your perky self today." Well, I'm sorry. I just don't feel like a perky person today. If I'm quiet for a while, something must be wrong. Because Noor is the funny and loud one. She is always expected to be funny and loud. Well, I can be but I'm not always. I can't eliminate expectations, nor do I want to.
So don't expect this blog to be great, interesting, funny, depressing, deep, weird.
I'm just going to write. And hope that it makes sense.
So you can just stop reading right now.